Make-up or Mind

1.

Talking to Aster, the cousin of Malice;

her first name was Dice – I gazed in concern.

She didn't wear much, just a fishnet and “Avarice”

written on her necklace. – Was it too much “fine” or “nice” –

or something else, what put me to terms?

“Let me preach you, my devil, Jesus loves you Serm's –

may I bug you – “free hugs” – faith vs vice!”

2.

“You're out of your league, boy – Justice,”

the coquette of her lips and eyes got me dazed.

“But I wonder...” she parted from a corpsed hostage;

“Maybe you offer greater sport, than the last stage!”

“No, Jesus loves you!” I tried to not faze;

recollecting my thoughts and glee's under her smirking gaze.

“Erm, I want to offer you a piss – I mean peace!”

3.

“Aw, don't mind, if I do wanna bite;

you look like a delicious steak with chestnuts.”

“God, I came to offer you faith!” – “Oh wait!”

And getting rid of her cloths, she pointed at herself: “Say it!”

I had to turn around and gasp a blush. – “What?

I know you there all about these – don't be like the cat,

who ponders around the hot porridge – it's all right!”

4.

Then came Malice with Lady Red, and saw that picture:

“What the fuck!”; “Whiteraven!?”; “With her??”

“Oh boy – you're dead!” they both readied for sure

carnage at my hind. I didn't know any prayer what could cure;

salvage this situation and explain the sight laid bare.

“Don't knock his taste!” Aster replied and dared;

to step between us three, still naked causing frictions.

5.

Her soaring mood, like a hummingbird

tastes flower petals, was not answered with regard.

They both looked at each other, like they had misheard;

and then they hissed at me: “This is absurd!”

“I thought, you love me!” Malice remarked;

“I thought Malice was my only adversary!” Lady Red barked.

“How many more??” they both demanded my word…

6.

“Chill girls – I can explain it – I was preaching!”

I gasped in dismay and sweaty shudders;

they didn't seem to listen and there reaching

for their weapons and armor and started besieging.

“You're all about hips, ass and udders!”

“Don't worry, old chum, we'll make you into fodders!!”

But Aster was also not giving up with scolding and teaching.

7.

Don't kill my boyfriend – I just found him!”

“Yeah, we can see that.” Malice snouted;

“He's still alive.” replied Lady Red with a grin.

“What happened to your last?” and raising her chin;

“Didn't he die in agony?” they both shouted…

“Sorry, that was a weakling...” Aster pouted;

“But, I believe in this specimen!” she offered a whim.

8.

“Jesus loves you all! I tried to save my face –

“Oh, shut up, I'll deal with you later!” said Lady Red;

Malice nodded: “Me too!” and the fight hastened pace.

Cloaks, daggers and smoke was filling with a chaice;

debris floating around, when ever their crossed weapons – I despaired.

“Girls, listen up!!” and I created cage's of light scared;

encircling them to part their fight to get hissed…

9.

“Which side are you on?” they all snarled at me –

“Now you can't kill each-other, so hear what happened!”

I shouted to exchange words with them to see;

that no avail was offered and wails I freed:

“I was trying to convert her, not fuck nor pretend,

it doesn't look ghastly...” and their cages cracked, rent;

leaving me helplessly waving my hands, like a drowsy bee…

10.

they started a tug of war to tear me side by side:

“He's all mine!” – “Not a chance!” – “Drop dead!”;

“You wish, ugly!” – “Looked into the mirror, shide?” –

“Beauty before age!” – “You're the oldest!!” – “Lies!”;

“Um, we should be same old, but I will be heard:

He's mine and back off or else...” – “Ooh, I'm so scared!”

And so forth til' Kingdom come and I resigned dead or alive.

11.

Jesus was scooping me up from the river;

and under the rock, inside a tossed coin.

I didn't know, what happened to my silver –

all gone light and fainted with a sliver.

I felt like after the murder of Abel was Cain;

nothing added up, it was just so insane…

I wish I had to offer more as a good thanks-giver!

12.

"Son, I love you, but don't you agree, that was silly;”

Jesus talked to me with soothing words, standing –

I was, but a hollow of my former self, like a wet Willy

is awaited and longed for on Christmas – it was chilly.

I looked down and inspected shoe laces, attending

to the thought, how to redeem myself trendy…

I was slapped in the face – “Wake up! Oh really?”

13.

“Verily, I say unto you, but not for debate;

you there supposed to Love me tender, and not charge

ahead! Not catch me a thousand circumcisions for rate;

circumstancing about their loyalties and future fate…

Behold, mercy starts with yourself – don't enlarge

the orders and Creeds to show-off, how you gathered wizards arch!

Forsake this broken I – Mage, before it's too late!!”

14.

Jesus left the building, and it was sheer apathy;

how was doing the right thing so messed up??

I pushed around some tables and tossed toffee;

tore the sofa apart, like on frenzy, to fee

for my blindness and silently ward my dress-ups.

Nothing moved in me and all was Torrent in cups;

I was reading a way-sign: Sociopathy – Psychopathy.

15.

What was I made up to venture, what mind;

all screamed lost, discouraging – I envied

the meek, with no voice to blabber behind.

It seemed, the more I ran rampart – blind;

to where the wind blows and stream tied…

No Covenant for me and no yesterday to rewind

to take back my first-love in Jesus and Loving-kind'!!

16.

I was looking for Malice, but she was not home;

Lady Red gone fishing and the table was empty.

Only Aster was on a merry-go-round wishing bone

attitude. I was just happy, she brought cloths – alone

the thought of her naked, made me grinch and fancy.

I started to realize, who my worst enemy was – Me, the ponzy

to Kamikaze my redneck into the “Thunderdome”.

17.

“Don't be like that! Lets play!” said Aster;

“I thought you're glutton for punishment.

Just the way I Like it – to taste faster;

fasting is so steadfast, it wont budge – blast em –

let me fasten your pleasures in honest meant

guises for make-up is pretty no-mind a trend!

What say, Whiteraven, fizzled or Caster?”

18.

“Why are you always before the Fall – Aster?

Like a midsummer Sunday without anguish;

like the lottery win everyone dreams, as must have!

But after the “friends” have vultured the turtledove;

spent all your values in one wish! – –

That wasn't my offer to you – let it be vanquished!!”

And I offered her my bible, to find out, it distaste her…

19.

“Freshmen rise and Heroes fall, that's not new –

same old this song! Why seek worry and lowered heads;

you can do better, than most could dare. Few

have ventured to promised lands, fewer review,

how to make one at hand – be that One as reads

and I shall love you forever – just not for Christ!”

She boasted at me and swirled her hair, pretty as morningdew.

20.

“I am not drunk of you, Lady Luck, still know;

Jesus loves you, even if despair is all, you got to give…

Not extatic for my crown and Kingdom to overthrow

the system – establishment – World! That's how the devil bows!!

Listen to the darkness and think again, wonder – to live

is more, than joyous respites could possibly strive;

or feasts of guts and marrow in the chosen first row!”

21.

“Give me a call, when you found your balls;

what's with that look, did it really went far.

You looked like much fun and that's not even all –

you could be the wet dream of girls and bust some sculls!

Why do you want instead of the Lilly a scar,

to wallow in sorrow and sighs of a pit with tar?!

Have you witnessed the songs of Larks and Nightingalls!”

22.

She departed and was disturbed, swearing heavily;

I didn't understand, what the problem was.

I looked puzzled on my bible to verify –

like a cat, who offered chosen birds to her Lady…

“Why didn't she like it, what is the cause?”

It made me falter my posture and pause

the thought, to remember, what Jesus said verily.

Jesus Loves You

1.

When you failed your exams and forsaken your values;

hurt someone dear and family abandoned.

When edgy your conduct and poisoned your menus –

Jesus loves you and wants you to be honed!

2.

When you feel so wasted and full of mistakes;

judgment is devouring heart and your soul!

When you feel unworthy and scolded as fakes;

Jesus loves you and makes your sins white as wool!

3.

When you're abandoned by those who you trusted;

hoped for care some, when you there falling.

When knives and forks all what world to you disgusted –

Jesus loves you – the Heaven is calling!

4.

When others fornications and boyfriends grinching;

your tastes and endeavors on the market flagging!

When rotten eggs and snake-eyes only to you hinging;

Jesus loves you and wants with you out-hanging!

5.

When you feel aghast and unfairly treated;

like only you are the center of shame!

When words are like bullets and hugs cheated –

Jesus loves you and wont offer you blame!

6.

When you're brokenhearted and wearing the World

on your shoulders and naked before every ones eyes!

When over is your childhood, but adults just turds;

Jesus loves you and wants to bless your lullaby's!

7.

When the cross like the sword seems to cut through your heart;

severing the marrow from kidneys and liver!

When your guts is hated, all over the place, apart;

Jesus loves you and wants you to be forgiven!

Nightmares

1.

Can I believe, that my mind has been freed;

redeemed from the system, established and neat?

Decrees and vocations – the rally of just breed –

is that all for you, Lord Jesus, or justice for me…

2.

Is it my righteous, what saves and resolves;

bounteous virtues, to grant in excess?

Have I yet place in my heart for the wolves;

or only the sheep, who are gathered en masse?

3.

Is my yoke tender, is my quest easy;

when somebody listens, may he be himself?

Or is hope on that another word – treason,

to wash away others reason and wealth…

4.

Do I see eyes, do I have glasses;

at hand and on face to guzzle the rest?

Is my goal really you, what surpasses

the need to put everything to the test?

5.

Haven't more Evil been done by Thy name;

than pirates could loot or fugitives maim?

How many are Christian – that's just so insane –

like all, you have taught us, has been in vain?

6.

Who does still mercy and not glitter the prizes;

to war-craft the coffers of highest esteem?

Warning from mousetraps and cats, while mice – us

are eating away our hopes and our dreams…

7.

Nightmares untarnished, while famished the neighbor;

sovereign preachers, while churches do coughing –

after refreshment, all is for Marlboro – –

the atheist still has to die alone, in nothing.

8.

No one does justice, not a single one dares –

without branding his name on his deed;

like when the left hand dost know right – no care –

so let all be on circus, as the pod-casters feed!

9.

I remember, how we used to run wild, Jesus;

to be together on every book and display.

I couldn't lift a single finger nor needles;

before gussing, what you had to say…

10.

Now forlorn is my church and I have gone yonder;

friends, I knew there, and family befriended…

Was all, what I did, just a mishap, blunder –

can I truly follow your Cross unintended?

11.

I do know better, than my childhood and gambles;

but do I hold others in the same regard?

Maybe my suit and tie have obstructed and shambled;

what was promised in Heaven, as sacred rewards.

12.

Only excuses I have from rich prophets:

“The World is so cold and cruel, so unfair!”

Still Jesus died for it, so quit that act – stop it!!

Even on the Cross, for the sake of the others He cared!

13.

Rich prophet – Witch Prophet – black and white mingles;

shifts and conceives, to pull back the leather.

Weather is cloudy, the sun needed wrinkles;

rainy days diapered, and broken the lever…

14.

Dispelled are the functions of law, order, guidance –

every man does his own right on demand.

If the neighbor not give fruitcake – hindrance –

from the prophet to the beggar understands.

15.

Over stand – overlords, overcast – overdose;

overtime – overkills, overture – overlaps.

Over best – over tops, overcast – over pose;

over eat – over game, overshoot – over faps!!

16.

What should I question, where should I feel;

your corners to cherish, your edges be glad?

Or is my rose-garden thorny, a compelling feast;

like the hand in the gauntlet ironclad…

17.

Help me, Lord Jesus, on my hour of surge;

when darkness is looming the abyss in the deep.

When making a jump seems the only urge,

what looks reasoned, and not like a freak…

18.

Help me marvel the cracks and entwines;

and not find loopholes in others conduct.

Restore my Joy, my First-love combine;

knowing you, Jesus, the choicest of Luck!

19.

Have I said folly, have I done little –

help me recapture what you have esteemed.

Give me your eyes and your Cross for a chatter;

to walk a thousand miles in yours – so I plead!

20.

Brittle the gestures and subtle the notions;

fainting a habit and blushing the code.

Honor not more, than kites on commotion;

to have their place on the balcony forebode!

21.

Save me, Lord Jesus, from Me – Mine – I catch frases;

skirmish my dreadnaughts and make them go sink.

Better be broken than the Hellion in praises;

worn out – forsaken to still know you, than stink!

22.

Nightmares still granting: “You shall not pass further!”;

give me the strength to have and hold dear!

As the faithful have witnessed, may I be as a feather;

from your wings to bespeak to the deer!!

Mercy not Sacrifice2

Mat 9:9-13 “As Jesus passed on from there, He saw a man named Matthew sitting at the tax office. And He said to him, “Follow Me.” So he arose and followed Him. Now it happened, as Jesus sat at the table in the house, that behold, many tax collectors and sinners came and sat down with Him and His disciples. And when the Pharisees saw it, they said to His disciples, “Why does your Teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?” When Jesus heard that, He said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. “But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy and not sacrifice.’ For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.” Mat 12:1- At that time Jesus went through the grain-fields on the Sabbath. And His disciples were hungry, and began to pluck heads of grain and to eat. And when the Pharisees saw it, they said to Him, “Look, Your disciples are doing what is not lawful to do on the Sabbath!” But He said to them, “Have you not read what David did when he was hungry, he and those who were with him: “how he entered the house of God and ate the show-bread which was not lawful for him to eat, nor for those who were with him, but only for the priests? “Or have you not read in the law that on the Sabbath the priests in the temple profane the Sabbath, and are blameless?”

So now that Pastor Jeff Durbin from the Apologia ministries, who aired “Help end Abortion now!” https://youtu.be/SUhRRs4g9QA has produced some explanation and bible quotes – thank you very much for your bible quotes, brother Jeff, now I know what you there doing there on the street to “deserve” the police attention, that propelled you to air your dish on the cops, https://youtu.be/mT_RRqgf7m4 what drew my attention, and here we are now… Took you long enough!

So you're the prophetic voice who wants to speak against abortion in America? You're the prophetic voice of the multitudes (1Kings 22:6) for you have gathered behind your back how many churches to aid you in your quest? Well, my problem with that is, that the Prophetic Voice has never been heard from the Establishment, but from the desert as the minority report. How on earth is your ministries, who gets funded so well, the minority report of the Gospel of Jesus Christ? But lets move on.

I agree with you – abortion is a sin – however I draw the line on passing the blame on the women. It's not that they can within reason yank their wombs out and insert it into the boyfriend/husband/you to have you reason weather or not choose abortion then the public is murmuring you for getting pregnant in the first place. Because the issue about abortion, is the bigger issue about marriage and unwanted pregnancies. Now it's again good that you're against contraceptives and call them “also abortion” but why don't you address the more important question: “How to keep the dick inside the pants and not produce one-night-stands what produce unwanted pregnancies forcing the woman to get in the open and taking all the blame, while the boyfriend/man is without blame!” I mean on most of the times, you don't expel men, who knocked their unmarried women pregnant or suggested them abortion. You're only hissing and snarling “Murderer!” in the face of the woman who carries the unwanted child, because it's her problem and not yours or the boyfriends or someone else. And that is Evil, for you're picking sides (James 2:3) Why you don't call the parents “murderer” who don't want their daughter to be impregnated by the boy from the lower class or by a useless delinquent? Why don't you call “murderer” the boyfriend, who doesn't want to get married for fucking the girl, who was in the drunk state and he has another girlfriend he wants to hang out or possibly marry and now the pregnant girlfriend who wasn't even one, but just drunk, gets the shitty blame and sometimes even “abortion by boot-heel!!” And you call only the woman who had the full womb “murderer” - That was what the ranting woman in her car tried to explain to you, but was unable. “Don't blame it to the women only!” see the bigger picture! I have yet to find a sermon from you or linked to your ministries what says: “Don't fuck your girlfriend pregnant – if you fuck your girlfriend pregnant, marry her – if you can't comply to one or two, you're committing adultery and are possibly a “murderer”! For the soul can be murdered too, not to mention the unwanted child! Why are you not having Mercy towards the weakest link of that problem, but trying to sacrifice them on your altars of self-righteousness? Why don't you start a ministries that gives out letters to call you, then they consider abortion, instead of yelling into the megaphone and putting all the ones who go into the clinic or even work there green-lit, so the public could hate-mail them for not doing the same sin! Aren't you Evil, by doing so – you corrupt conductor? I got this expression from Batman: The Brave and the Bold – Music Meister for you are also like Music Meister, playing you little tune and thinking yourself special. Just that you can drone others to submission – I watched how your arguments defeated your opposition, especially the agnostic. For you didn't offer them “fair game”! It is true, that from an agnostic perspective you don't know the truth, because everything is the same way truthful to them. That includes the bible. That means, that for an agnostic, the bible is truthful as being written by men, and not inspired by God – for their admit inability to experience the Gospel of Jesus Christ as truthful and you assault that, claiming, that the Agnostic is only truthful then he agrees with you! That is wrong and Evil!! How can they even experience the Gospel when you're not living it? (Gal 2:11-16) You're still producing works of the flesh and not of faith! Or if you ridiculed Amber the Satanist, for her cowbell – do I need to remind you of your Megaphone was according to the law and allowed you to threaten the police with a lawsuit and disrespect them to the point, you didn't even give them your full name, Jeff Durbin, what would have cost you 10 seconds of your time, they would have filed a report that they gave the report to you, about the complaint against you, because that is your legal right to know that, and that would have been the end of it and you could have assumed busineess as usual... but you there too busy quoting pro 24:11,12 to see the police as the devil – and then you lie to their faces about respect?? Something tells me, that the cow bell was not louder than your megaphone! Also, the Satanist is right, for you don't like nor respect her, for not Loving Jesus Christ! Admit it! You hate everybody, who is not immediately on board with Lord Jesus Christ and want to cast fire down from heaven as would have happened to Samaria, then Jesus couldn't cross their territory for the festivities in Israel and some of his followers suggested it! You are the same kind – without Jesus you would torch the whole world for not believing Jesus Christ! You're even worse than Isil, for they are doing that honestly what you are doing in your heart and not admitting to it!! (2Sam 12:12) You hate them and think of yourself betters, for not having that sin (Luke 18:9-14) For you are not an agnostic; you are not a Satanist; you are not the pregnant woman going to the abortion (John 8:3-7) And also, the Satanists are right in donating money in your name to the clinic, for you should love them too and not hate them for their work. For they want to help the women in getting rid of their shame what the unwanted child creates, pastors like you don't ever address – for its the women's fault in your eyes and they should deal with it and not you – don't you agree! And what was the rant about, you can't do everything – if you can't do everything, then you build up a team of members who do their fair share, and then together you do everything. You look like a fire-fighter, who extinguishes the top of the fire and not the root of it and manages to save 3 hot chicks, while letting the ugly witch; atheist professor of Philosophy and drag-queen burn to cinders with the entire house, while wasting three times as much water and resources as would have been needed to save it all – because the house was a brothel! If you would extinguish by root, the fire would be off faster and the house would still stand and it would be business as usual, but you don't like that, for business as usual dost not give credit to you! And that's why your ministry will fail, for not being built on the rock but on sand… You deserved to be startled by the police, for you there disturbing the public order and peace, and if I there judge in your case I would sentence you to 1 month picketing around the White House with a sign what says: “I, Pastor Jeff Durbin, are a tatter-tale – a teller of gossip, who murmurs behind the backs of others, without giving them proper chance to defend their case same score. I blamed the issue of abortion solitarily on Women and renounced the responcibility of church in educating the youth of not conducting in too early sexual relations!” And that I would put on your Apologia site and on You-tube 24/7 for you still have to apologize in front of the police officers you offended by not giving your full name to them and to all the other participants you offended by disrespecting them – especially to the Satanist with the Cowbell named Amber! For whatever you do or don't do to those who you deem lesser from you, are the face of Jesus Christ – and you have done all that to Lord Jesus Christ and shall answer for it not to me, but to God after Judgment day!! I hope to hear from you and your proper response to that claim, if you're not too busy with the lawsuit or something else, what could go through your mind… Peace and Love on Christmas.